This could be my last entry to end the year of 2011 taking into consideration the frequency of me blogging these days. Forseeing less entries in the coming 2012 too, tho I don't intend to shut this blog just yet and will still try to post as often as I can as if people still bother to read it.  It's funny, because I used to feel uneasy whenever I stopped blogging for a week or so ..can't really deny the fact that age and maturity has more or less affected me in a way.

You may ask, what has maturity and age got to do with blogging? Admittedly, we're all suckers for good looking blogs. Noone likes a dull blog, neither do I. Preferably, one with many pictures (camwhores or with hotties) and scandalous gossips or updates of  Mr. Xx and Miss Xxx. Taking myself as an example, as the years passed I hear less gossips (or interesting 'statements' ) from my friends, less updates on facebook (not significantly but you can tell) as well as less motivation to even get myself participated in most happening events. Given in the past I would've throw my body (not literally,) to get the exclusive passes to VIP events and always geared up for a good night out but these days , maybe it's my recent job change or the location itself, most Friday nights I would very much prefer to cuddle with my loved ones and just laze the night away. Hence, zero update= Booringgg.

Of course being a woman of vanity, my camera still stay close to me at all times, at least in most major events if not all .But if you  notice, there's hardly any photos on my blog. Blame it on my laziness and Facebook but I certainly didnt create this blog to upload every 'pretty' photo of me and my hot friends. No doubt I love to write (or type) at times when I have more than sufficient time to ... but these days reading blogs filled with words and no pictures equal Boredom to most of the blogreaders out there . In other words, I'm "OUT" already lah.

Let's just forget my idealogy of blogging and move back to some updates on my reality.

If i can only have one word to describe the year 2011, that would be "Change". A change , whether for better or worse, a change of lifestyle, a change of people- just about everything.

Often, we don't feel or see the change in ourselves unless we take a deep dive into it. Screening through the 300 plus days of 2011, and compare with what was in 2010, certainly things have changed on my end. A pretty drastic one too.

Every little things that happened around me can be told as a story , and for many, it is interesting enough to even share with others of no relevance. My first half of the year was fast paced and filled with unwanted letdown and dramas. It was a turning point of yet another phase of my life. There was a big decision made in a quick of time , though not ideally right at that moment and had caused misery to one and the whole story was never the same again. Guilty, yes . But was it the right decision despite all that happened? Yes, and I don't think I'm regretting it . I learned that 'fate' and 'timing' are of completely diff nature and if both occured at the same time together........ my advice ? Go for it regardless.

My party reputation has been dampened this year with a cut of possibly near 30% as compared to the previous years. My party "ancestors" used to tell me that I will be going through the same phase one day and evidently they have proven themselves right. Let's face the fact. Less party when one is no longer single and available. Everyone knows that.  The verdict? 30% healthier and less alcohol consumption on weekly basis ..The con?I am getting less and less energetic by day with less things to look forward to for a weekend. There's a price to pay for everything, and in my case, better to be in the arms of your loved one than sobering up in mamak stall alone with random people.

The big downturn of 2011 would be the lack of time for my exercise regime. I used to gym everyday from Mon to Thu and subsequently go for my dance class on Sundays. I used to feel good and healthy after a sweaty work out and proudly tell people the importance of staying healthy regardless of our busy schedules. Now I seem to be going against my beliefs these days and it has been 2 months since the last I stepped into the gym. I could probably put the blame on my previous job which was excruciatingly stressful .. or even my current one as it's located so far away from my old time gym but I know I am just making excuses to comfort myself. Someone needs to seriously slap me in the face and push me for it before I completely wipe that to-do from my list. At times like this, Yeeyang where are u to train & motivate me ?:(

The exposure I get from belly dancing has given me more opportunities to perform in many big companies and even F&B outlets.This year we have performed in many events including AirAsia , my Std Chartered, Sunway hotel and Mahsing property launch. Portfolio is enlarging and I wonder if one day this would ever be my full time job but then again who likes seeing an auntie perform anyway ? -_-

Lately my grandparents' especially my granpa's health has deteriorated. Grandpa was warded into the hospital for the past few days due to difficulty in breathing plus lung infection . Smokers out there, quit before it's too late .Unlike many others , my relationship with my grandparents are pretty much as close as it gets with parents. My mom has been living in New york for the past 12 years and dad has always been an independent man who lets us enjoy the freedom of MYOB since we were young. My sisters and I are constantly taught to take care and love our grandparents but from the start and honestly, we never needed the lesson. I love my grandparents. We all do. And all I want is for them to be happy and healthy all the time.

It was a relief when my grandpa was allowed to discharge yesterday. However this incident has provoked me recently to think about the passing of my two beloved dogs two years ago. Memories were still fresh and past few nights I couldnt stop but to refresh the bitter days when Mungo was put on drips for 10 days and had to be put to sleep when the test failed on him. His strength and loyalty to his owner (my grandpa) was bitterly overwhelming that any sane people who witnessed him trying to stand up normal despite not having any food for ten days, jus to greet my grandpa before saying the final goodbye, would be bursting into tears. And yes, I'm probably missing him too much. There's bound to be times like these... 

Seeing my grandparents getting older by the day pains me . The thought of knowing either one of them will leave me someday is not making me feel any better. I'm never good at dealing with loss of loved ones, and I don't think i'm ever ready to. The only thing i can hope for is to prolong the times we can spend together and make the most out of it .

Health and happiness should be the only two things we are constantly chasing for.

Let these be my top 2 priorities in 2012. And so should you.